316 - Birthday ideas

With D's vacation creeping up on me I find myself feeling a little bit confused. I am happy to have time to myself and time to do anything really. But I'm also going to be sad that I wont be able to have the same kind of connection with him that we've had over the last little while. Hes also my wake up call since hes started his new schedule a couple of weeks ago. Its been really handy to have him call me in the morning as I don't really want to get up to go to work that early anymore. I would have been very content to sleep in and prance around my apartment for the whole day.

Every so often and I think the time is soon. Most likely when he returns, or a little after he returns I know we'll have a pow wow about whats going on and where things are and all that jazz. Just to keep me in check and I can admit that because I think I like him more and more and want to find out if I need to do anything more or less and if there are things that I can improve on.

I'm not sure Ill ask everything because I'm not sure if its proper to or not. I'm also a bit worried about some of the replies that Ill get and might rethink things a bit. Just to clear the air and refocus on things that need it. I often wonder about what its like to be on the other end of those conversations. Whether I come across as someone that's just too much of one thing or another.

S wants to get together soon. We haven't seen each other in a while and I know he'll be hell to deal with when I do see him, only because he'll have all this energy and excitement. Which can be fun but hes a bit on the rough side. Ill have to figure that out as well. Maybe something very low key and very public so he keeps himself in check and I don't have that responsibility of having to thwart any/ more advances than I would.

A friends SO's 30th birthday is coming up and shes asked me to come up with ideas for what to do to celebrate. That's always a bit nerve wracking for me as I'm very bad with these things. Coming up with ideas to celebrate someones birthday who I don't really know all too well as hes very shy and quiet when I am around, is difficult.

I don't really know his likes and dislikes so its that much harder for me. I mean if it was for my sister I wouldn't know what to do either. I'm a very bad planner when it comes to these things. Now for one on one ideas involving things on the sexier and more seductive nights, Ive got a few ideas but I think she would be impressed with the ideas though I know Ill be asked questions about how, where and whens. I will definitely give her a few ideas on what to do when they are alone.

So other than the generic ideas that people would come up with. I have nothing. I wonder if this is something I should be worried about. It doesn't seem like I'm very creative. Though I would be able to impress you with what I can do with other things. Very strange how I am wired. Even Ill admit to that. Interesting though as its a constant evaluation and comparison with what is supposed to be 'normal'. All done in a healthy way of course.

We'll be getting together on the 16th for a GNO and trying to figure out what to do. Shes a bit late with planning this so that's why I think shes enlisted me in the committee. His big 3-0 is Sat Jan 30th. Oh that's nice 30 on the 30th :)

Ill be getting those pictures soon I hope. Something keeps coming up.