366 - faze

So im excited about moving into the new place but im not excited about the added expenses. I know it will be OK. Its mainly that Im not used to it and once Im used to the routine it will. be fine.

Ive started packing and my place is surrounded by rubbermaid bins and cardboard boxes. Ive packed most of my clothes and left some out that Ill use. For a single girl Im amazed at how much stuff I have.

Lots of boxes of books. Which at some point Ill have to go through and donate someplace. Ive already got a few boxes of clothes that I no longer want. A lot of them still have price tags on them. So that should make people feel better when they see it.

I know I could have a garage sale-sans garage. But its just a hassle that I dont want. So its off to be donated. Same with things that I dont use or take up space and collect dust.

Simplicity is what Im after.

Ive been a bit drained lately. All the running around, getting things in order. Making sure deadlines are met and that Im staying on top of things.

I feel a little bit lost because Im not sure what Im doing. Im not sure what questions to ask and Im not sure if Im missing a step or if theres something more I can do. I have to rely on D and other peoples experiences to see how I move forward.

I am excited about it.

A is thinking of taking me on a trip.
S sent me an email asking if I want him to ______ me
Profuse sweater left me a voicemail
TC called and we caught up on things.

I think the house will take my mind off of D and that will make it a lot easier to faze out what I used to feel. Its already happening but I still like him and we still hang out and have a great time. Though I know. Theres no point in being in a relationship if its not going anywhere.

I mean I can argue both sides but thats the side im leaning on.

365 - good news

Its been too long. So much has happened. Im putting everything else on hold to post something. It wont be much but I wanted to share in the good news.

I bought a house. I take possession Dec 1st. My last day in my apt is Dec 31st. They couldnt help me work around the 60 day notice. Which is fine as Ill have a month to move.

Im broke because Ive used what Ive saved as my down payment. Im scared that Ill be living in a house where Ill be cold and hungry. Where all I do is work work work to pay off the bills.

My sister is thinking of moving in with me which will be a great help. I dont want to sound desperate but it would really really be a great help. But in case she doesnt. I know Ill be OK. I know that If the bank didnt think I could afford to buy a house they wouldnt have approved me for a motgage. So I can do this.

She will most likely take the basement as that would give us space from each other. As much as I love her and we love each other. There needs to be a space between us so we both dont get too irritated and too into each others faces. More to come on that.

Ill just have to cut back on going out for drinks, dinners, lunches and ill have to stop footing the whole bill when I go out sometimes.

Life will certainly be different but I figure its high time that I stick to and follow a budget.

It feels like such a grown up thing to do. I get teary sometimes and not because of the change in how much and what bills Ill be paying but that I am growing up. Making adult decisions.

Theres a part of me that scared of moving forward because theres the possibility that that parts fun will end. I just have to tell myself that its a different kind of fun that Ill be having. I just have to tell myself its a different part of fun that ill be having.

SB was in town and we had a lovely time together... :)
R was in town and I was sick and didnt want to get him sick so we are going to reschedule for another time.
B is hoping to get together sometime in Nov.
A has offerred to take me on a trip seeing as Ive taken my trip money and used it for the house instead.
SE misses me and has invited me over to his place for drinks. Ive told him I wont sleep with him and he said he would tell his neighbours he did anyway. SE and I work together.
T just bought a motorhome which will be stored for the winter and which he wont be using all winter. Maybe he'll take me on a weekend trip sometime in the summer. I think he will. Hes sweet on me. But we also work together so friends it is.
P called and left me a message and I wasnt able to call him back hence I wasnt able to spend time with him.

Work is going well. One of my girlfriends is going through training later this month. Im excited for her. I hope she does well.

xox