392 - Happy May 24 weekend!

Ive painted the second bedroom, the kitchen and the bathroom. Next on the list is to paint the hallway downstairs. I also want to, I dont have to but I would like to paint the fence in the backyard as well as the bannister leading to the front door and the balcony off of my bedroom... now that I think of it Id like to paint the second balcony off of the breakfast nook.

Ive already worked on the grass in the front and backyards. Filled in the spots and put in a lot of work so its the best in my area. Well, I think so.

Im still driving the same car though Im starting to wonder about perhaps trading it in for something a little newer. My choices are Honda, Toyota or Hyundai. Honda because its common and seems to last and hold its value. Toyota for the same reasons even though theyve had some issues that have become public recently. That and my first car was a second hand Toyota and even though it was older and in rough shape, it did what it was supposed to when I needed it to. A Hyundai because I know people that would give me a great deal on the purchase and also know people that would take care of my wallet and the car for the maintenance. I do have to think of the resale value of the Hyundai.

Work is going well. A little turmoil during contract negotiations is what I am expecting next year so Ive started to be careful and Ive added a savings account in case of a rainy few months. Ive also been trying for the freedom 30 club but they havent been able to match my numbers yet but I remain hopeful :)

My dad was up for Christmas and New Years, up from San Diego, California. It was fantastic to spend time with him. I feel bad that hes all alone in San Diego. I know he has friends but its not the same without family. Id like to be able to travel to see him more but my schedule and finances dont allow for that. Maybe when the numbers match that will change.

The love life is still tangled with D, though with time I am letting go. Its a slow process for me. Who knows but I do know that ill just meet people and see where they go.

391 - tension

One hour to spend with JC, we went for a walk and talk. Not dinner and a movie, or beer and wings. A walk and talk. It was surprisingly pleasant. He made no rude or crude remarks about anything. We touched on various topics and stayed with our hour limit. It was nice to have that limit as I find myself in a difficult place where Id like to end it for some reason or another and cannot.

I have to say that JC isnt usually the type I would go for right off the bat but that pleasant hour made up my mind and I find myself looking forward to seeing him again. Our conversations since that hour have been a little bit more personal. He has intimated how and where he would like this relationship to go. After of course, letting me know that he was pleased with my appearance and also that he was attracted to various and many parts of my body.

I havent given him any indication of where I stand on his directions but I am enjoying the idea of the various things he has shared with me of his plans.

The ability to make someone anticipate, is powerful. Sometimes I catch myself thinking am I the one on the receiving end of it or is it I that weaves that spell? No matter, it is an experience.

On one hand I am doing the girly thing and thinking of JC and I in an actual relationship and imagining how it could be with him. Then reality hits and I think it could all just be nothing. Only time will tell. Though my guess is that the experience with be short if not full of the good kind of tension :)