391 - tension

One hour to spend with JC, we went for a walk and talk. Not dinner and a movie, or beer and wings. A walk and talk. It was surprisingly pleasant. He made no rude or crude remarks about anything. We touched on various topics and stayed with our hour limit. It was nice to have that limit as I find myself in a difficult place where Id like to end it for some reason or another and cannot.

I have to say that JC isnt usually the type I would go for right off the bat but that pleasant hour made up my mind and I find myself looking forward to seeing him again. Our conversations since that hour have been a little bit more personal. He has intimated how and where he would like this relationship to go. After of course, letting me know that he was pleased with my appearance and also that he was attracted to various and many parts of my body.

I havent given him any indication of where I stand on his directions but I am enjoying the idea of the various things he has shared with me of his plans.

The ability to make someone anticipate, is powerful. Sometimes I catch myself thinking am I the one on the receiving end of it or is it I that weaves that spell? No matter, it is an experience.

On one hand I am doing the girly thing and thinking of JC and I in an actual relationship and imagining how it could be with him. Then reality hits and I think it could all just be nothing. Only time will tell. Though my guess is that the experience with be short if not full of the good kind of tension :)