90 - partner

Ive told someone that I was bad at relationships. Then it went on to not being good at relationships. Then to not having had a successful relationship. Then finally to maybe I dont have a problem at all.

Why would I say something like that to someone? I picked my brain. I found out im scared and insecure. It was an honest comment. Im not comfortable in a relationship because I havent had one that... lasted? That made it? Im not sure why I feel that way.

I think I would make a great partner for someone. I wont go into the reasons why. I started and it seemed like I was putting up an advert to convince those of the opposite sex that I was a gem, that they have been missing out all this time and that they should jump and find me.

Reasons for being a good partner for someone has to be balanced. Someone cant be too this or that, too shallow/vain or too timid/modest, too in your face with wanting attention to a solitary mouse, from too frigid and cold to...well you understand. But I guess when you fall in love with someone it happens and it doesnt matter that they are too this or that because theres something in that person that just... calls to you.Im not holding my breath or anything, but I wonder if someone out there has my number.. and if someone should happen to have it, would I have theirs?

Its not only finding the right balance within oneself but finding the right balance with each other. Maybe my past relationships werent balanced. I know that it was the right decision that I am no longer in those relationships. For everyone.

Oh well. Im not sitting around and waiting for it. Ive got my life to live. People to see and things to do. Or is that the other way around??