159 - initial contact

What is it about the initial contact with someone? Is it the anticipation? The unknown or is it the knowledge that the challenge is on? If there even is a challenge. Is it not knowing how things will progress and how things will evolve.

Always with no expectations of anything specific. I go into these things just very laid back and open. I follow when they want to lead and lead when I need to take it somewhere else.

The possibilities are endless and the anticipation mounting. Is it wanting something that you cant have or is it knowing that in a second it can be mine if things should happen that way. Strong, confident words coming from someone that isn't always.

I wonder if its all me and all in my head. Do I create the challenge that lays before me or does it manifest with every action, discussion, thought and encounter. I wonder if the other people go through this. They must. I'm sure.

I also wonder if anything is being reciprocated. Why do I want to know? So I know if there is any interest headed in my direction. So I know what the interest is in. Whether its something platonic, something more than platonic OR no where close to platonic and have delved into the land of something or another.

I'm curious.. what can I say?