For You

I'm happy to hear about the changes in your life. I'm glad you've met someone. I'm glad that things are looking up.

What I'm really glad for is that your life is now different in small ways that make a difference. Like how and what you see hear, smell and taste. I wanted that for you. Even if it wasn't me who brought it out. I'm glad that someone was able to do it for you, with you.

Life isn't easy or simple and that's what makes it interesting. How we decide to live. Sometimes it isn't what you will run from but what you will run to. If the want is strong enough then you will find a way to get there.

Ive never met you and in a way I am jealous that it wasn't me that brought about all of these great changes. But I am happy that it happened. That the things that I wanted to help with, bring about, create and so on is happening for you.

I hope that the light of life shines on you and yours and that you continue to experience everything with a glorious wonder. From the leaves on a lily plant to the way a bird flies with its wings spread wide open.

Enjoy the lighter steps, the fresher air, the weight off of your shoulders.

Much love and happiness.

For You

I don't even know you, yet there you are in my mind throughout the day. So far away yet you've already made an impression. I wonder if you'll open the door for me or hold out my chair at dinner. Will you hold my hand or wrap your arm around me. Will you miss me even as our eyes are locked on each other.

Do you wonder what I am thinking and if I am thinking of you. Do you smile at the small possibility that I am wondering the same thing about you. Do you shake your head sometimes at the amount of times your thoughts wander over something Ive said. You've made me lose concentration a few times during the day.

I imagine a different scenario of how things really are. A silly girls fantasy. A grown mans desires. I'm curious and that can get dangerous. You take me away from reality and pull me into this world that I want to be a part of. Why couldn't things have been different? Maybe it wouldn't be the same if things were different. Likely.

Where did this start and were you expecting it as I sure wasn't. I like it but I'm scared of it. If only you knew who I was...

For You

I heard this song and it made me think of you. A single fish. You who is far away and on the other side of the world. You who make me think. Without even knowing it, without even meaning to. Ive thought of you often. I hope the world for you, even as your life continues. The ups and downs. The zigs and zags. I hope that in some small tiny way. Maybe you've thought of me too.

Really, you'll never know what I am thinking of but if you did. I hope that you know that I'm in your corner cheering you on. It will happen when its meant to happen. Whatever it is that you want to happen. Just be patient.

I'm a stranger to you and in some way I think the stars, the moon and planets and possibly The Powers That Be are either making fun of me or using this as a lesson that I need to learn.

We'll see. What I am, what I feel is a gift. Its not meant to scare you away and make things complicated. Its just there. I'm there without you realizing it. There's something sad yet liberating about it.

If you never see this that's OK. You've become a part of my life, in a way that you might never know. Thank you.

You Give Me Something by James Morrison.

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You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep,
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.

You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me,
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what the mean,
I never thought that I'd love someone,
That was someone else's dream.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart,
But it might me a second too late,
And the words I could never say
Gonna come out anyway.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart

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