Letter from my dad

To my Son, my Darling and my Sunshine,

We have been in two different poles of the universe. North and South. While we plan to be together in some future dates. Soon I would think. I just wanted to reach out to you and say that I miss you and love you much.

We all have grown accustomed to the status quo. I am also at fault and I am the first one to admit it. I should have jumped to every opportunity that came in front of me. I would not want you to repeat the same mistakes I did during my younger years (???).

There is a big wide world of opportunity out there for everyone. We need to get out there and find out what belongs to us as dictated by our Maker, our Lord.

Just like the story of the frog that was born at the bottom of well. He lived there with his family and was quite content. He (the frog) thought, Life does not get any better than what he has now. One day he looked up, saw light on top of the well. He became curious and wondered what was up there. So one day he decided to climb up and find out for himself. Reached the top, peered over the edge. First he saw a pond. Thousand times bigger than the well. Hopped further away and discovered a huge lake. Hopped some more miles away and reached the ocean. Now he realized how limited his thinking had been.

Many times were like him (the frog). Enclosed in our own well. A comfortable environment. All we have ever known, a certain level of living, a certain way of thinking. We settle for too little. What we all need to do is venture a bit further were we have never gone before. Dare to to dream bigger. Look out over the edge like the frog.

Our Maker has Big OCEANS. He wants us to enjoy life. But we all need to do our part, that is get outside our own little box or out of our small well. Let us not allow complacency keep us in mediocrity. We feel comfortable where we are and we use that as an excuse. I believe our Maker wants all of us to go further, be successful. Break out and get out of the mold. Focus and commit to our own to change for the better.

I know and I feel that our Maker had more in store for each of you and me. Let us keep up the faith in Him and trust Him all the time. Go out there and be blessed.

Today, don't just settle for what you have. Begin looking beyond where you are to where you want to be.

I love you all so much and I miss you all ! Stay healthy, Keep Safe always.

Say your prayers and give thanks to our maker each day. No matter how many times in a day - say thank you Lord for the favor.

Papa

For You

I heard this song and it made me think of you. A single fish. You who is far away and on the other side of the world. You who make me think. Without even knowing it, without even meaning to. Ive thought of you often. I hope the world for you, even as your life continues. The ups and downs. The zigs and zags. I hope that in some small tiny way. Maybe you've thought of me too.

Really, you'll never know what I am thinking of but if you did. I hope that you know that I'm in your corner cheering you on. It will happen when its meant to happen. Whatever it is that you want to happen. Just be patient.

I'm a stranger to you and in some way I think the stars, the moon and planets and possibly The Powers That Be are either making fun of me or using this as a lesson that I need to learn.

We'll see. What I am, what I feel is a gift. Its not meant to scare you away and make things complicated. Its just there. I'm there without you realizing it. There's something sad yet liberating about it.

If you never see this that's OK. You've become a part of my life, in a way that you might never know. Thank you.

You Give Me Something by James Morrison.

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You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep,
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.

You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me,
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what the mean,
I never thought that I'd love someone,
That was someone else's dream.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart,
But it might me a second too late,
And the words I could never say
Gonna come out anyway.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart

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To...

To...

Its been a while, Im not sure what it is. Im not sure if its me, or what. I apologize if its something I said. If it was something I said, I wish I never said it. Would it be awful if I said I miss you. Probably shouldnt even mention that, but its there. I do.

I know you must be busy, we're all busy. I know I cant be on your mind all the time a much as I would like to think I am. I know thats not the case.

What do I miss? Knowing whats on your mind, having you share with me your thoughts on this and that. You sharing something new with me, knowing that it would make me think. Sharing your unique views.

Opening my mind to situations and possibilities. Making me want to be something, someone. Better. Just more.

I just miss it. Whatever it gave me, this thing between us. If there was even a thing. Made me smile.

Ive no idea whats on your mind, I dont belong there. I just like it when you invite me in and bring me to a place that I feel comfortable in.

For that, I thank you.

Darling

(darn not knowing... lol but in its own way sometimes its the best :)