255 - whats your pleasure?

So D's on the phone with me last night and he asks me if I have heard of this place called the Le Nordik - Nature Spa http://www.lenordik.com/ for those of you who are curious to see what its about :)

I tell him that I have heard of it and want to visit it some day as it looks really relaxing. Ever so nonchalantly he mentions that 'maybe when you start your new job (hes oh so supportive about me getting this position) we'll be able to go together. I hear they have some great packages, we can have some wine, massages and relax in the pools together.'

Oh it might never happen but a girl like me? I'm happy with the idea and him mentioning the idea. I'm such a girl its unbelievable.

My plans with J fell through again. How many chances does a guy need? History? It was the third or was it the fourth time that we had planned to meet and something came up. Its also a bit strange that the only nights he can meet are Tuesday or Thursday nights. Fishy I say.

So I tell D that meeting with J isn't going to happen and that I feel a bit bored and restless as I was expecting to go out for a bit. He suggests me renting a movie. I tell him Ive already seen what I have and he repeats the renting part of his suggestion. Cheeky!

I tell him its a great idea and I ask him if he could stop by and pick up a movie and bring it over so we could watch it together. He laughs and tells me I'm non stop. I smile and laugh with him. You cant blame a girl for trying right?

So no movie. No date. Instead. I made a Mango Martini, ran a hot bubble bath, a book by Laurell K Hamilton 'The Harlequin' and parked my naked self into the bathtub for some self indulgences.

Who says I need to be out and about all the time? I can very well enjoy myself over and over all by myself :)

Today. I have strong memories and flashbacks of the self indulgences which makes for me looking forward to lunch with D all the more... intense.

On one hand, we may have sex at my place which would surely make both our days. On the other hand we may decide not to go to my place and instead go have lunch somewhere. Where it will drive me bananas because I'm thinking of what could be happening at my place. Its all good. Ive been able to enjoy the tease that it has become.

Not getting serious about anything with D. Its an adventure. One of those choose your own pleasure kind :)

Whats your pleasure?

216 - night alone

A night alone, no plans with those in the soup bowl. Kind of nice. A lot unnerving. Why unnerving? Just that it feels different not having plans. A good different of course. As much as I love getting ready to go out or have someone over. There is something to be said about

1 walking around in a pair of boy cut panties and a tank top with a pair of flip flops.
2 dancing around to a good song pretending I'm a stripper to continue the night without the tank top, panties or flip flops.
3 putting on a pair of sweatpants and a sweater to play with the dogs in the park
4 letting my phone ring and not answering it

I have to admit it was nice. It was nice to be alone and just not bother about things like my hair, nails or what I'm wearing. It was great to run around with the big dog while the little one sniffed around the trees. We would run back to her and bring her to a new spot to explore while the big dog and I ran around again.

Running around reminded me to go back to the gym. I'm not in bad shape, just need to get in better shape. Better is always better. Its either 5:30am or after work. I prefer to go in the morning but I only get to fit in an hour and a half. If I go in the afternoon I'm there for 2-3 hours. Once I get going its go go go.

So that's on my list of things to get back on track on. The gym. Id also like to say that Id like to get on track with reading again. Its been a while. I'm a bit wary though as it may turn me into a temporary recluse. Ill gobble up books one after the other and still be hungry for more. What I have been doing to satisfy my reading hunger. Is pick a book and read a chapter or 2 at a time instead of the whole book in one sitting. Its OK but I feel like I've forgotten the start of the book.

I might just go on a book binge sometime. Though usually and I might be mistaken. Ill read when nothing interesting is happening in my life. Could that be true? Maybe, possibly. Who knows. But if nothings happening in my life. I could possibly read a book and I could always get ideas. Some good others not so much. Some very very good :) Its all turned out well so far.

Tomorrow is my brothers Birthday. He'll be 30. Tomorrow is also the Sens game which I will be working from 2 in the afternoon until who knows when. Ive got Sunday morning to myself but that times already been earmarked for things like groceries, laundry, cooking etc.

So my night alone made me think of whats been happening with the alphabet soup.

D, not quite sure what we are. Maybe friends with benefits. But I'm not an expert on these types of relationships but we text and talk to each other often throughout the day. Id like to know whats on his mind about us but I'm hoping that its something I'm OK with and something that wont make me run... and vice versa. Don't want to make him run as its pretty good how things are. We'll see each other in the middle of the day for lunch and or for something more.

K, is eager to spend more time with me, but with August on its way, I have to keep in mind I don't want to.. complicate things... more than they are. Sex is good though. Were still in that stage where its brand new, its all full of tentative touches until you find that reaction you're looking for. Still curious about him and his life and love talking while sharing a bottle of wine.

G2, calls me once every few days to touch base and see how I am doing. Hes still wanting me to go visit him and I'm not sure if I will or not. Doubt that I will. He called me 3 times yesterday while I was on phone strike. Ive yet to listen to his messages and the other messages on my voicemail. Oh and he just called me again and it was good to catch up with him. Didn't talk long. Had to turn down the invite for this weekend. I'm working the tailgate party for the Sens game here on Saturday. I might not be home until well after the game ends... well.. depending how much people are partying.

G, has fallen off my radar but he always pops back every so often. Hes trying to plan a trip to TO and I think as soon as he knows the details then he'll get in touch with me. Hes got a lot on his plate. Ill fire off an email to him to see how hes doing. I might not have a 'normal' relationship with him but I do generally care about how he is. As I do with everyone. Just more so with the people that I am actually involved in as there is a personal connection there.

T, I'm not sure if Ive mentioned. Is in Chicago doing research for...?... something medical. I wasn't sure if it was something he could talk about so I didn't ask details. Hes been there for a while and he hails from TO. Haven't heard from him in a while. I hope hes OK. I should send him an email as well.

M2, called me yesterday while I was at work. He always says that I could have a job in the phone sex industry if that was something I wanted to get into some day. I don't know whether to be flattered or insulted. I just laugh and shake my head at that. Hes an interesting character, every so often when its convenient for him he gets in touch with me for something or another.

S, left me a couple of messages that I wasn't able to return. But we did connect this morning and he wants to get together some time and he wants to take me to a 'special place' I don't know about you but If someone tells you its a special place it can either mean that hes someone special to me and knows the kind of things I like. Or its special to him because hes hoping to get some. So... thinking that, Ive only had dinner with him once and now he wants to take me to somewhere special. I think Ill be vetoing that and picking a special place that I choose. In this case a coffee shop in a public area sounds about perfect.

P, is super focused about getting together. More to come when things develop.

I know it might look bad. The alphabet soup that Ive got going on. Its not, at least I don't think it is. All our schedules are different and it works out that I do have time for myself and its nice to be organised enough to make sure that I see them every so often. When schedules work out of course. Makes for a lot of fun and keeps me busy and on my toes. Not to mention needing to look good which makes me feel good... the cycle continues :)

I'm young and healthy not to mention safe. It wont always be like this. I know that. At some point things will change and I wont have soup. Instead Ill have.. something... or nothing and Ill starve. It all about trying new things, meeting new people and living life to the fullest. I should probably focus some of the energy elsewhere in my life... theres an idea. Maybe my work life will be as fullfilling as my sex life. HA!

I'm only 27 once in my life.. for 364 days. Imagine the possibilities! I have no idea what will happen for most of those days but I know that I have some control over what happens with some. Enjoy what you can. 28 is coming and its eager for its chance to live it up :)

212 - cool

The need for an air conditioning unit is high. I'm on the top floor of an apartment building with sun streaming in from sunrise until about 4pm. It doesn't cool until the sun goes down. If there is a breeze I hope its a cool breeze and not just shuffling around heavy humid air.

Last night I get a phone call letting me know that there is a sale on at Future Shop on one particular AC unit. I debate on whether I want to go and try to get my sister to come with me. She has plans already made and cant get out of it to come with me. That's OK, maybe Ill wait though I'm told that at the price they were advertising them at might mean that there wouldn't be any left when I do go to see them.

I get a call from my brother who has no plans and I ask if he wants to go with me and soon we off to get my first ever AC unit.

We see a few models and as I have no idea about ACs other than they make your house colder. I read the features on the boxes and at how they are 3 in 1s now, fan, dehumidifier and ac unit. Fancy. I'm looking at a portable unit as I'm against unsightly things sticking out of my window. Ranging from 250-499. I get a crash course on how much space a 5000 BTU unit would cool. A room apparently, that wouldn't be fit to do a whole apartment. Next one up I look at looks promising. 9000 BTUs, able to cool a bigger space, this one at 499$ The price is not appealing.

I look around and compare between models and sizes. One of the managers comes up to me and lets me know that he has available only for today, a sale on the last box of a 10000 BTU unit. I smiled and asked him what was wrong with it. He laughed and said that nothing was wrong with it. He told me about it. I asked questions about the unit, warranty, installation and other things.

I told him I didn't know anything about ACs and that I appreciate the time that hes spent with me. I told him I would discuss a few thing with my brother and would find him with a decision. I walked around a few minutes with my brother and did the pros and cons with him. More pros than cons. Big con was I wasn't doing any comparisons. I told him Id fix that and called 2 people who have some knowledge of ACs.

Both phone calls resulted in me purchasing the AC. I was grateful to have people to call and talk to about what I was about to do. Made it seem like I wasn't getting ripped off completely.

So I saved 200$. I was thinking, even if they were lying to me about it being on sale as it wasn't on the floor or anything. Just up on the rafters collecting dust. For the size of it and the amount of BTUs its still a good price. Other models that only had 9000BTUs were priced at 499$. This one seemed like a good deal to me even without talking to other people about it.

When I got home I had my brother set it up for me and I couldn't turn it on right away as I had to let the Freon settle. Once he had things arranged he took off and I spent some time getting things organized, nothing exciting. Though it was all done in the nude. If you find that kind of thing exciting :)

Where we had it made it stick out and look like an eyesore as it didn't match with anything that I owned. So I took it apart and moved it to the other corner where it wouldn't be such an eyesore. Heavy bugger. It made it and more importantly, I made it.

I turned it on and sweet cold air. If you're picturing it. I'm standing in front of the unit sans apparel and the air is blowing right at me, you guessed it.

D came over earlier than usual and he took a look at how I put everything together to make sure I didn't miss anything. I didn't. He didn't think it was an eyesore but he did say it didn't match anything I owned. I told him that he should have seen it before I moved it to where it currently is.

He showed me a couple of things about how it worked and then we went into my room and we both smiled because we knew what was coming ahead. A lot of kissing, licking and stroking were some of the things that were on the list.

Its still new and exciting. I wonder if the sex will ever get unexciting. I mean there are still things to try with each other. I think mid March or so is when we started to copiously couple. I think last night might be the first night hes been privy to seeing my hands on my breasts.

So, saying that, Its fun. I'm not in a rush to whip out my sexual resume in front of him to let him know what I have done but its fun to let things come naturally (pun intended) Even if its something as having my hands on my own body.

203 - blogs

I did it again. I found this blog and read every single post this person put up. Thank goodness they started their blog only in Jan of 2007. Otherwise I might have spent more than a day or two on their site.

So this person who wrote this blog. Lives in my town. HA! Imagine that. I'm not the only one from Ottawa blogging. Well I knew that as my brother blogs as well. No don't ask me what he blogs about Id rather not find out about who he is seeing and what they do behind closed doors. Oh wait that's why I don't want him to know about mine. AHEM

But really... Its neat to find another blogger in the same city. I feel somewhat stalker-like. I know about him but he doesn't know about me. Its like a bad B movie in the making, which will only end up with me shrugging my shoulders and saying 'oh well'.

For all you lurkers if I have any :) Hello, how are you?

The thing is. Like the blogs that I do come across like yours if you have one that I might have read and commented on. There's something about it that I like. The way you write and share. Its entertaining and it satisfies me in a way that I cant totally explain. OK I am a nosy person and love that there is a window into your mind and life that you share and allow me to peek on once in a while.

I have no idea if Ill ever comment on his blog for a couple of reasons.

Im shy :)

If I comment on his blog he'll be able to see mine. I know I can post anonymously and as much as I don't mind getting those comments. Other people might not like it and I don't think I have anything to hide (at this point) so I think I would prefer to comment with me backing myself up 100% (don't let that hold you back from commenting anon OK?)

NOTE: this might not make sense but its my thought process. Welcome to strangeness.. and somehow it all works for me.

Another reason I don't want to comment? Because Ill want to meet him. Just to meet him. No strings. No expectations. I'm probably getting ahead of myself as I am even doubting what to talk to him about. I can just picture me in front of some guy with a blank look and nothing in my head to talk about. Well.. nothing of substance to talk about anyway. There is always something to talk about.

So maybe Ill scratch that for now.

Maybe Ill just lurk around his blog for a while which I have been doing. Much like yours if you have one (blush) I'm shy! What can I say? Its a work in progress you see.

Well. This will be a learning process for me. Who knows how things will turn out. Its kind of dorky for me to be blogging about another blogger that you have no idea about. Nor does this said blogger know that I'm talking about him. What else is a girl to do at work?

JK Ive got plenty of work to do... in case anyone from work is reading this. :) busy busy busy!

OH.... I can picture it can you...

Darling writes a note... ' I like you, do you like me' (in essence)

Blogger replies ' WTF are you?'

Through the weirdness of this post. I'm laughing in the end :)

Personal question to self and a question my sister has often asked me. HOW OLD ARE YOU!?

98 - book list

Heres a list of the books that I borrowed. Ive been a bit busy lately and havent found the time to finish even one. Hopefully I can get through a couple this weekend. I think it will have to be done as I look at them where they sit and think of reading them cover to cover LOL

Wish me luck!

1 Back to the bedroom / by Janet Evanovich.
2 The book of true desires / by Betina Krahn.
3 Broken / by Kelley Armstrong.
4 Captive moon / by Cathy Clamp and C.T. Adams.
5 Charming Jo / by Laura Drewry.
6 Code name: Blondie / by Christina Skye.
7 Crazy kisses / by Tara Janzen.
8 Dead end dating / by Kimberly Raye.
9 Deborah's story / by Ann Burton.
10 Delicious / by Susan Mallery.
11The devil's knight / by Lucy Blue.
12 Divine madness / by Melanie Jackson.
13 Ghost hunter / by Jayne Castle.
14 Just for kicks / by Susan Andersen.
15 Just one of those flings / by Candice Hern.
16 Keep me forever / by Rosemary Laurey.
17 Kill me twice / by Roxanne St. Claire.
18 Kitty goes to Washington / by Carrie Vaughn.
19 Megan's mark / by Lora Leigh.
20 Midnight moon / by Lori Handeland.
21 A moonlit knight / by Jocelyn Kelley.
22 My favorite witch / by Annette Blair.
23 Mysteria / by MaryJanice Davidson ... [et.al.].
24 Nerds like it hot / by Vicki Lewis Thompson.
25 Primal heat / by Susan Sizemore.
26 Dates from hell / by Kim Harrison ... [et al.]
27 Radiant / by Taylor Jones.
28 The red heart of jade / by Marjorie M. Liu.
29 Smitten / by Janet Evanovich.
30 Spell of the Highlander / by Karen Marie Moning.
31 Too wicked to wed / by Cheryl Holt.
32 Touch a dark wolf / by Jennifer St. Giles.
33 Undead and unappreciated / by MaryJanice Davidson.
34 Undressed / by Kristina Cook.
35 The untamed one / by Ronda Thompson.
36 Wolf at the door / by Christine Warren.
37 You slay me / by Katie MacAlister.

96 -library

I went to the library to return 3 books and I wasnt planning on browsing... I had the time... so I decided to browse. (power of choice) Thought I would find a couple of books to have something on hand if I felt like reading something.

So I started to look through the shelves, thinking that its been about a month since I last went into the library. There were plenty of books that I didnt sign out at that time so there should be a lot of books that I will want to borrow.

Shelf after shelf I went through. I dont know how long I was there for. I dont know what happened in the world while I was looking at covers, flipping through the book to try and get a feel of whether I would like it or not.

I remember walking to the table where I parked my purse and surrounding my purse with books so that if someone were to try to walk away with it people would surely notice the books scattering all over the place when they would try to pull it away. Now if they just unzipped my purse to remove my wallet.. then... the alarm system I had built would not be sufficient. :)

So at one point I counted the number of books I had around my purse. 24. I thought 'Darling, dont overdo it, youll have to manage your time very well if you add anymore to that pile.' I tell myself to check out one more shelf then call it quits.

5 shelves later... I find myself walking to the counter to sign them all out. Im a little embarrassed about the 2 trips I make to the counter. Two because after she scans every. single. book. I look at the slip she hands over and scroll alllll the way down to the bottom and see the Total = 37 (gulp)

OK so why the Library? well... If I were to buy each book at a low cost of 5.00$ this trip to the bookstore would have had me weighing $185.00 less. Multiply that by the number of times I visit the library. I would be a waif and no one wants that most of all me. If I read something that really moves me in many ways or just plain gets me all aflutter. I will buy it at the bookstore.

I guess I went a bit overboard. How was I supposed to know that the last 5 shelves would have books that caught my eye, attention or curiousity!? Yes I will read them all. yes Ill enjoy them all. No I wont lose any and yes I might even talk about a few of them. Maybe find new authors that I must must must start to follow.

I have to say, that every time I picked up a book to add to the pile, I was giddy. Its exciting. Im excited by reading. I like it. No Love it. Im thankful for all the creative people in the world who share their stories. I mean those of you who shared your stories with me (smile) and those authors who I may never meet in any way, shape or form in this life.

I appreciate all your hard work, your dedication, your relentless pursuit of spellchecks. Thank you for taking me away to a place that youve created, for making me feel like I was a part of the adventure. Please know that your words have taken me places that I may never experience in my life, its nice to have a glimpse of that place.

Now hurry and finish writing another book so I can read it (smiling patiently)

forty one - books

For the love of books. Have you ever found a book that you could not put down? A book that just called out to you. Spoke to you. Made you think, wonder and imagine? Made you want to find more like it and just swallow it up, get your hands on it and want your own copy, perfect in its uncreased spine?

99% of the books I pick up make me do all that and more.

Some make me cry. Stories that illicit tears, I find that so powerful. To bring that emotion forth, while reading words put together so well, to coax out the shallow breath, the blood to pump a beat faster, making lips tighten against each other, nostrils flare with the shallow breaths until the tears fall silently down flushed cheeks.

Taking a moment to process the thoughts and reasons for why such a powerful emotion was called. Its beautiful. If I read something that can make me cry. I love it. I find it a great thing to be able to have felt so much from what someone else has created.

Thats not the only reason why I would love a book. Laughter is another. Anything that makes me think, that makes me question, that gets me to feel passionately towards a person, place or idea. So many reasons to fall in love with a book. Reading is wonderful. We should do more of it :)

Most of the time I have a book with me. Why? I do not watch TV (rarely) I do not go clubbing or bar hop (sometimes). Instead of sitting in a waiting room for any reason i'm not left to stare at the ceiling. I read.

When I read, I know and I have been told that I am in my own little bubble. I wont notice someone standing in front of me for a minute. Ill be a bit grumpy if I am interrupted (not always) I rush to do something just so I can get back to reading

I wonder sometimes. Authors spend a lot of time creating this wonderful book for me to read. I wonder if I am doing them an injustice by reading the book in less than a day. Ill be selfish and admit that I crave and get impatient for authors to turn a new one out. I also think that they wrote it just for me lol to make me happy get me to live in another world until I finish it.

Some books really make you think and make you see the world and people in a different light.

Any writers reading this? If yes please let me know your thoughts on readers inhaling your work.

Can reading be a vice? *smile* If so, I have found mine.

Happy reading everyone :)